I can not do any magic

One of my bad habits is, if don't continue doing anything in at least 30 days interval, I will just forget it in rest of my life time. Now, this blog is a victim. I had forgot my blog in recent days. I don't want to say that I was busy(though I was). I aggressively hate the word 'busy'. I have had number of works queued up. As usually I ended up messing them and collapsed all my plans. In these days, my life is more volatile than the stock market! I don't want to crush my self and stick to plans.. because that leads me to feel frustrated... makes me sick... increases my heart beats... I just want to be very frank of what I can do at the maximum, in the given situation. I cant do any magic to achieve my targets. I can just do my work.I cordially accept any slippages from regular works. At least, I can sleep peacefully, no matter it happens or nothing happens.

This is my inner feeling since last fews weeks. "I can not do any magic to achieve my targets! I can just work, may be hard."